dreamgaze revival

09:27 p.m.
Monday, May 21, 2007

K so I havent't been here in awhile. Sry I should be trying better at keeping up with this place but life is busy and fun right now. Anyway, I have a really important question that i would like to ask. Do we ever really grow up?? I mean how many of us out there still have a major part of our childhood inside of us? I think my mental age should be about 10 now. Really that's the way that I keep acting when it comes to my fiancee. I try to act like I'm the age that I am, but there's a problem I still act like I'm a kid. I don't know where to draw the line between seriousness and horse play. Just today we had a talk and it was funny I would go from being serious and logical to being a kid when I wasn't supposed to or it wasn't needed. then it came to pointing out how I act and I took that weight and added my own. I don't know if I'll ever grow up. It hink that I'm still in my shell that I had for about 12 years and all my scars are out there for the world to see now. Hell even posting here doesn't help but whatever. I need to do something to get all of this out. Just e-mail me if you happend upon this page and have the answer to the question, "Do we ever really grow up?"
Thanks

-Jesse-

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09:55 p.m.
Saturday, April 7, 2007

Today just seems to be weird. I guess I just feel strange. I know that really isn't as descriptive as I should be, but I really don't know how to describe how I actually feel since my mood keeps changing. I'm not a bi-polar or anything like that. I just keep going from happy to sad and the changes happen fast. I bet all of this is brought on by Zach leaving tomorrow and I have to work.
Yeah, I have to work on Easter and Zach goes back to KingsBay leaving at 6pm. It really sucks!! I wish he had one more day home. That be great!! Well even then I have to work and wouldn't be able to see him off. Kinda a lose lose situation! Blah! >< Besides he has to be back on base by 1800 on Monday...k that's 6pm. for those of you who don't understand military time. ^^; Yeah I'm going to be married to the military (the Marines!) so I have to learn some of the jargon cuz that would just help out in the future. Lol
K in other news I really don't have anythng else interesting going on in my life. Unless I can think of something real quick. *long pause* Nope nothing coming to mind. But I have a feeling that I'll be back to this page soon. ^^

-Jesse-

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12:58 a.m.
Saturday, March 24, 2007

Hahaha!! I'm back at it here. God I missed this place. I missed it because only a select number of people know about this place. Which means I can pretty well talk about anything that I damn will feel like talking about. Hehe.
Wow I even remember some of the html coding needed for this page. I'm loving this! K anyway, I've got a lot of news to tell everyone that still comes to this little page about. A: I'm now engaged. Yeah I don't know how many of you all knew that one. Yes it's to Zach. He's a marine now btw. He's going to finish training on Wednesday, March 28, 2007. Also he's going to be stationed down in KingsBay, Ga. Hopefully, I'm going to be able to move down there with him in about a year. B: My cousin Jennifer is pregant. It's going to be a boy. I'm just freaked out because she's 6 months younger than me. Grah that's scary! Some people at work think that I'm pregant. Trust me I'm not. *Rolls eyes* Umm what else is there? I work at Wal-Mart still. I don't know if I mentioned that in one of my posts.
I can't think of anything else to post. Well actually I can think of two other things that I want to post on. But I know that if I get started talking about the two things then I'm not going to get off of here any time soon. So those will come later. I just wanted to let everyone know that I haven't forgotten totally about this place. Later!

-Jesse-

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09:36 a.m.
Tuesday, November 22, 2005

I guess it's time that I update what's going on in the great schems of things. Well in all reality nothing really. Zach and me just had our six month aniversery (sp? like i care).
My Aunt Linda and cousin Jennifer are out of the hospital. God was I wrong to worry about Jennifer. I think half the nurses hated her. She gave them nothing but aditude. When she got moved up to the fifth floor she was nothing but a loud mouth little bitch, that thought everyone should bend to her will. I was sorry that I even went up to see her. My aunt on the other hand was nice and I liked seeing her. She was good to talk with.
What else is there to talk about? I hate school. I wish that I had taken a year off and worked. That way I'd have money to my name. But I didn't soo yeah. Some on save me plz!!!!
I must go now and start working on my short story for creative writing class. I also need to finish up my portflio and hand it in (and you guessed it, I don't care if I spelled something wrong).

*~*Chibi-Enya*~*

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